Letter
ok, you know how i get sometimes and i can't quite say how i feel so i'm going to try to write it instead. basically, it all comes down to the fact that i really do want to be w/ you. the fact is, you confused the fuck out of me w/ what you said. it's like one second you feel the same way and the next you're coming up w/ any excuse why it can't work. so you know how i feel now and you also know how much i value our friendship. and if all you want is that, that's fine. i just need you to TELL me. let me know what's going on so i can try to move on if need be. i really care about you, but i can't live my life on false hope. the last time i tried to move on things got a little off track and nothing's been said or settled since. so just let me know either way-we'll stay friends no matter what as far as i'm concerned. sorry to take the sissy way out but for some reason this is the one thing i can't talk to you about.
one last thing-things have been strained lately and i don't get it. if you just need time away from me, that's cool. that's your decision. it has been quite an interesting year. :-) i understand. and if you want to try to make things work that's cool too. i just don't like to live in the dark
love
me
posted by LittleOne @ 2:58 AM
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it's not cutesy it's just-well how i feel. not even a portion of it. and after what happened over the summer w/ amy's letter and knowing he got it and said nothing and me taking that as a bad thing when he didn't know to trust what she said, that he needed to hear it from me.
it's just not supposed to be this complicated. i thought i was supposed to finally give in, admit the "L" word and then everything would fall in place. hahaha. if only life worked that way. so i'm scared to send it and fuck things up more and i'm scared to not send it
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