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Stacy : so i see you finally figured out how to use messenger?
compe: hey
compe: hellooooo
Stacy : what? i didn't have anything to say to that. i asked you a question and you answered w/ "hey"
compe: oh didn't see it hold on
compe: what is thatbuddies thing
Stacy : huh?
compe: like my buds cool new im icon
compe: whats that mean
Stacy : you're confusing me
compe: just dont know what your talking about
Stacy : whatever
compe: your fav word
compe: hate it
Stacy : so?
Stacy : y?
compe: case sound like your being a bitch
Stacy : actually, i was saying it w/ a smile you just can't tell on the computer. but now it's "whatever" like a bitch
compe: no no no please dont be mad
Stacy : i can't do this
compe: what
compe: can we do this later
Stacy : i like you, i really do, don't get me wrong. and i want to be friends. but the way you talk... i can only be friends.
compe: the way i talk huh
Stacy : about other girls. like you're trying to get me upset or something. or maybe that's just how you are. and to make a point of saying you chilled w/ someone i work w/ who you made very clear last week you thought was hot
compe: i'm sorry but you've been playing with me for two weeks
Stacy : god it's scary when you find out your friend just lost their SO in war... sorry, i know, off the subject. just found out. that hit me hard
Stacy : i have not been playing
Stacy : i've been honest
compe: giv me a sec please
compe: you have but just you never really let me in
Stacy : i couldn't because of the way you acted
Stacy : i'm not gonna open myself to be hurt again when you're seeming to make it obvious that all you're looking for is a friend
compe: maybe true unsure
Stacy : ??
compe: sec
Stacy : i'm sorry, is this a bad time? i can talk to you next weekend...
compe: no
compe: hello
Stacy : you said to wait a sec. i was the last 1 w/ a question. what did you mean by what you last said?
compe: hold on let me read
compe: oh
compe: well i'm just not sure i kinda can't get into a SERIOUS relationship cause i'm leaving soon
Stacy : duh
Stacy : i realize that
Stacy : you send mixed signals just as much as i do so don't try to blame this all on me
compe: not tryiny to
compe: so what do you want
Stacy : at this point could we be anything other than friends?
Stacy : look, i tried to go out and party again and have a good time. i don't know what my prob is. i'm old now, or got too set in to married ways, but its just not my thing anymore. i don't want to be @ bars every night and clubs every weekend. my weekend doesn't start on wednesday and end on sunday anymore
compe: i know i've been a self dructive mode for the last two weeks
Stacy : you gonna be on for a bit? my show's on
Stacy : oh, and you would be amazed @ how clean my room is
compe: mine isn't but let me guess housewives show
Stacy : lmfao. yup!
Stacy : love it!
Stacy : ttyiab
compe: yes i'll probably be on al night
compe: i dont know internet lingo
Stacy : ttiab-talk to you in a bit
compe: oh ok bye bye for now
Stacy : back
Stacy : u around?
compe: yeah
Stacy : admit it, you were watching desperate housewives, huh? lol
compe: no just sittin here listening to music
Stacy : suuuurrrre.
Stacy : It must be really lonely being you.
compe: yup
Stacy : lmao
compe: huh
Stacy : laughing my ass off. lmao
Stacy : It's 10 o'clock. Do you know where your brain is?
compe: i'm sorry i told you that i dont know internet lingo
Stacy : lol, i know. i'm gonna learn ya good
compe: k
compe: willing
compe: alreaddy getting better typing
compe: i mean faster
Stacy : you'll be a pro b4 you know it!
compe: thanx
Stacy : I love it when you type real slow
compe: hey that shit is really cool but your fucking my music
Stacy : awww, poor baby
compe: shut up
Stacy :
compe: i'm crazy
compe: for real
Stacy : i figured that out a while ago
compe: takes one too know one
Stacy :
compe: do u think your cool cause u can do that shit
compe:
compe: ha
compe: know more audibles
compe: what
compe: no imeant
Stacy : You make my heart melt
Stacy : haha, i like that one
compe: stop
Stacy : whatever
compe: ooooooooh
Stacy : i'm pissed cuz my fucking ticker won't work right!
compe: clicker
compe: or ticker
Stacy : ticker
Stacy : hmmm, i don't know if this will work
compe: whats wrong
Stacy :
Stacy : nope. hang on
compe: what the hell is all shit you keep sending
Stacy : try this http://geocities.com/giana_marie123104/dylan.html
Stacy : that's a ticker. but the one i want to use i can't get to work right
compe: what is it
Stacy : shit, page is fucked up
compe: i dont look at that shit
compe: im still trying to messenger correctly
compe : baby steps
Stacy : now it works. click on the link above
Stacy : duh, click the link, the page will pop up for you. its the easiest thing you can do next to typing
compe: k
Stacy : it updates daily but i can't get my deployment one for my brother to come out right.
compe: ok so what hell is it
Stacy : it's a ticker. it counts up or down for an occasion
compe: which means
Stacy : like, i always used to have one in my siggy on forums that said how long until my wedding anniversary. i have one that says how long joey's been deployed, how old my niece's are, how long ago dylan passed away
Stacy : when do you go to fl?
compe: oh didn't mean to take lightly
Stacy : i was gonna show you
compe: i saw it
Stacy : fine. you just didn't seem to get it is all. whatever. they're just fun to put on my webpage and on my siggy's is all
Stacy : http://www.angelfire.com/ma3/beautifulprincess
compe: stop sending me this stuff cause i don't look at them
compe: except for that one
Stacy : whatever. that's my page. fuck you
compe: oh hold then let me check
Stacy : i coded the whole fucking thing myself
Stacy : a lot of the new stuff is making fun of jenny
compe: jenny who
Stacy : friend of mine. roberts
compe: oh
compe: sam
Stacy : maiden name is grisso. you might have gone to school w/ her. we've been through this
Stacy : sam?
compe: sam?
compe: i dont remember anybody
Stacy : where the hell did you get sam from?
Stacy : you said sam
compe: no you did
compe: oh
compe: dunno
Stacy : re-read dear
Stacy : lol
compe: ssstttudder
Stacy : lol
compe: have confession
Stacy : k
compe: viv just called
Stacy : oh
compe: cant lie
compe: wont lie
Stacy : fuck, i know who the better one between us is. go have your fun. i'm not a fucking idiot and i don't expect you to sit around waiting for me. but if you're gonna fuck w/ someone i work w/ stay away from me
compe: i'll definately let u know first but i just had to be honest i'm like other people we know
Stacy : (i meant better between me and her. i would pick her too)
Stacy : just come get your stuff
compe: i'm not like other people
compe: what
Stacy : you have movies here
compe: nothing is even happening
Stacy : then y would you feel the need to tell me she called?
compe: just cause i didn't think it was going to be a big deal
Stacy : it's only a big deal because it was important enough to you for you to tell me and cuz...
Stacy : i don't know. it doesn't matter. i don't know what's w/ me today. i've been like this all day
Stacy : you just aggravate me cuz you say one thing, then act another way, then say you don't even know what you want and you wonder y i act like i do?
compe: i just told you cause i didn't want to trip when u heard that i talk to the same night i talk to you
compe: hello
Stacy : y would i hear that? i work in a company of over 300 people and we work in different departments. it was totally coincidence that we even had to email the other day. the most interaction i have w/ her is passing in the hall. it's tammi i know.
compe: ok then forget about it
compe: hey will u be around in ten cause running to the sto to gets beeer
Stacy: yeah, y don't you get me some while your there
compe: bitch
Stacy : excuse me?
compe: know wasn't sure if you pullin that same shit as the other day
Stacy : damn, i was just fucking kidding
compe: k thats what i thought but wasn't sure
compe: thought u were pissed
Stacy : well, i am. or not. but not about that.
Stacy : i'm just frustrated
compe: can i help
compe: want to
compe: give me ten i'll be bac
Stacy : you can and you can't help. i have this wierd battle going on in my head between needing to get the fuck out and knowing that i'm still legally married. if D was seeing someone this would be so much easier. i would be out every weekend. maybe. i'm still getting old...
compe: bac
Stacy : have fun?
Stacy : get me anything good? lol
compe: yup and its going down smooth
Stacy : brat
compe: sorry left fopr sec
Stacy : s'ok
Stacy : just catchin up on some posts. i feel like i've been out of my friends lives forever! it's funny how they're all there the second you need them though. that's the good thing about a close girl relationship. they're hard to come by but if you find one it's there forever
compe: yup
Stacy : hmmmm, things are pretty boring around here today, cept for the vent room. lol
Stacy : (the first place i went today and i hardly ever go there! lol)
Stacy : allright... going to bed now i guess
compe: hey wait
Stacy : ??
compe: no my comp jjust froze
Stacy : lol
Stacy : all better now?
compe: yeah how to reset
compe: haD TO
Stacy : lol. need to learn how to spell
compe: no just typing
Stacy : you can still proof read b4 you press enter silly
compe: yeah i know i just have been ahead of myself
compe: tryiny to speed my typing
compe: still fuckin up
Stacy : lol. you'll get it
compe: i think so
Stacy : just don't try to talk to too many ppl @ once @ first. that's when you get fucked up
compe: actually today while iwas talking to yoou i was talking to someone else
Stacy : i figured
compe: what
Stacy : that you were talking to someone else
compe: yeah that girl fl
Stacy : thought you said you were set w/ her
compe: what do mean
compe: set
Stacy : you said the other night you were all set w/ her. no mas
compe: which girl are u talking about
compe: i'm not talking about my ex
Stacy : the girl you were talking to online that you met in fl. it doesn't matter
Stacy : i didn't say your ex, did i?
compe: i'm not sure what your talking about
Stacy : i think you were trashed. i told you, it doesn't matter
compe: what?
compe: huh explain please
Stacy : i don't see how i have been unclear in this conversation. not important anyway
compe: yup i dont give a shit
Stacy : you never do
compe: damn
compe: why do i alwaaays meet girls that are cocky as fuck
compe: whats wrong with being sweeet
Stacy : you think i'm cocky?? i'm the farthest thing from it. bitchy i won't deny, but cocky?
compe: sit corrected
compe: ha
Stacy : because i'll be sweet and then you'll do something to hurt my feelings or whatever and then i've already let down my guard
Stacy : and you've given me reason to keep it up
compe: gaurd shit you've got a fortress surrounding u
Stacy : i have my reasons
compe: true
Stacy : and i'm not talking about D.
compe: k
compe: this is the sicth i'm leaving in two months not trying to fall in love
Stacy : that's not what i'm talking about
Stacy : i'm not trying to fall in love either. i'm not sure i've fallen out of love
compe: ok then what
Stacy : but i'm also not gonna be w/ someone who's constantly hitting on other girls, and doing it specifically in front of me. that's just plain out trying to be hurtful.
Stacy : and i'm not gonna be w/ someone who's w/ other people. i don't know if i could trust you, the way you talk and act some of the time
compe: i know your not talking about the night cause i gave you mad respect
compe: the park
Stacy : lol, yeah, you waited till i wasn't there. and i'm talking about other times too
compe : like when be specific cause i'm clueless
Stacy : you were very respectful @ the park. i'll give you that
compe: word
Stacy : like, alot. the way you talk about girls. i mean, looking is one thing but it makes me feel like shit when you're w/ me on the phone w/ a friend talking about another girl. that's disrespectful
compe: when waws this
Stacy : what, do you think i record this shit on a calendar? a few times
Stacy : so that's y i hold back
compe: well
compe: stop holding back thats your problem cause before u know it i'm going to b gone
Stacy : you're the fucking cocky one
compe: no no no confiddent
Stacy : and don't forget, you're the one who started this whole "what are we" bullshit to begin with. things were progressing just fine b4 you had to try and put a label on it.
Stacy : ugh,you just sounded like D
compe: oopps
Stacy : you act like i've been pushing for a relationship or something and that's not what i want right now. actually, that's why you're good. and bad
compe: explain the good part fisrt
Stacy : cuz you're leaving
Stacy : i don't have to worry about complications
compe: meaning we wont have time to problems
compe: have
Stacy : it's enough time to have fun, but knowing i don't have to worry about being stuck feeling like i have to be in a relationship or that i'm letting you down
Stacy : ???
Stacy : k, going to bed]
compe: alright slepp well
Stacy : hey, let me know when you're coming to get your stuff
compe: stop talking shit
Stacy : excuse me?
Stacy : ugh. fuck you. goodnight
compe: goodnight sweet heart
Stacy : grrrr, are you trying to make me mad?
Stacy : besides the fact that everytime i get into bed this fucking thing makes a noise so i have to see who it is
compe: noo your tripppin
Stacy : i was finally sitting here and having a conversation w/ you that you have been begging me to have for a week now and then you decide to just stop talking out of nowhere and i'm the one that's trippin?
Stacy : r u chillin by yourself or are there ppl over?
compe: yeah theres people over
Stacy : ok, forget it then
compe: k
compe: bye
Stacy : oh, and for the third time, come get your stuff, k?

Next Day (in response to an email i wrote the night before when i couldn't fall asleep and didnt want to bother him since he had company.)

Stacy : hehe, you only got a long email cuz i couldn't sleep. i don't usually write long emails like that
compe:
Stacy : ?? y so blue?
Stacy : are we not talking again? lol
compe: huh
Stacy : i just sent you 2 messages (w/ quite some time between.) did you get them?
compe: sorry i waas donig something
Stacy : ahhhhh, k
Stacy : i was just joking.
compe: 2 mail
Stacy : ??
compe: send messeges where?
Stacy : here. on messenger
compe: oh yeah i'm doing a thousand things at once
Stacy : u wanna talk later? i should be up for a little bit, but not too late. i've been overly tired all day
compe: hey i have too eat shower and start a fire and i'll hollar bac
Stacy : fine
compe: is that a pissed off fine or happy
Stacy : lol. it's neither. sorry, it came out wrong. go do what you have to do. i have the volume up so i'll prob hear you message me but if i don't you can call. if i don't answer, i'm asleep
Stacy :
compe:
Stacy : no kisses back?
compe: xoxo
Stacy : lol
Stacy : go take care of your shit. i'll talk to you later
compe: holla in a sec
compe: hello
Stacy : hey
compe: sooooohats the deal we cool
Stacy : get everything done?
Stacy : i guess
Stacy : you get my email though? i didn't mean to be a bitch last night. i was like that to everyone. i'm sorry
compe: yeah got it and no still have to clean a little and eat
Stacy : i know you got it, i meant understand what i'm saying. i was trying to apologize. that doesn't happen often. take it and run. lol
compe: well i guess i feel like i should take some responsibility also i'm sorry
compe: one of my friends houses just burnt to the ground
Stacy : omg!
Stacy : what happened?
compe: can belieeve that shit
Stacy : fire scares the shit out of me
compe: he has kids and no where to go
compe: no money nothing
Stacy : the red cross will put him up for 3 days in a hotel. when did this happen?
Stacy : is he married?
compe: it's fucking crazy
compe: yes
Stacy : my friends house burnt down couple weeks ago. her 10 yr old son saved both babies and woke parents up. saved the whole fam.
Stacy : so where are they staying?
compe: grandmas
Stacy : fuck
compe: the fam at the hosp for smoke inhilation
compe: everyone safe
Stacy : thank god. that is soooo scary
compe: giv me a sec
Stacy : how old are the kids?
Stacy : k
compe's status is now "Available". (2/21/2005 9:29 PM)

compe: Oh... uh... Hello
Stacy : sorry, just realized you messaged me
Stacy : hey, random kinda question and you probably don't know but what are you doing march 5?
compe: no plans
Stacy : can we chill? actually, like go out to dinner or something? it's a saturday so it's cool if you don't want to. i'll pay
Stacy : ??
compe: yeah sounds good but every time make plans they never work out so lets play day by day
Stacy : i have a reason for this day, and the plans that people are making for me are, like, couple shit, and that's not good right now.
Stacy : but i need to go out and have fun and get fucked up
compe: ok sounds good
Stacy : k
Stacy : ty
compe: ty?
Stacy : thank you
compe: my pleasure
Stacy : lmao
compe: forgot what that means
compe: i suck
Stacy : hahahha. lmao-laughing my ass off
compe: ooooooooooh
Stacy : you'll get it eventually.
Stacy : lol
Stacy : do you have company?
compe: lol
compe: not presently
Stacy : k. just didn't want to be interupting.
Stacy : u expecting someone(s)
Stacy : lmao. someones isn't a word, is it?
Stacy : at least not in that context
Stacy : omg, in the marine band you can fucking enter w/out boot camp and start at E-6 (staff sgt)!!!!! even D's only an E-5!
Stacy : of course,you gotta be wicked fucking good. sorry, friend of mine just sent me this shit.
Stacy : u didn't answer my question
compe: hold on your talking crazyness again
compe: anyways to answer ques
Stacy : lmao. what?
compe: yes i think someone might be coming over
Stacy : sorry, marine shit confusing you?
Stacy : oh
compe: yeah i think its another one of your defense mechenisms
Stacy : what is?
compe: marine talk
compe: hello
Stacy : lol, sorry, not really. i've been involved for so long, it's an integral part of my life. and don't forget my brother's are military too. and my dad is civilian military work
compe: yeah i know i still think conviently talk about it in odd sitiuation
Stacy : sorry. you're probably right.
Stacy : actually, you are right
Stacy : but for real my friend had just sent me the shit, in my defense
compe: true
Stacy : how long you house sitting?
compe: week
compe: need a sec hold on
Stacy : yeah
compe: k
Stacy : what was that?
compe: what?
Stacy : you needing a sec
compe: are u multi tascking
compe: straight
compe: got yo jams on
Stacy : ??
compe: jammies
Stacy : i'm always multitasking
Stacy : yeah
Stacy : i did ALL my laundry saturday
Stacy : got in a cleaning mood sorta once i started w/ the vacuum
compe: true that i've cleaning over here too
Stacy : lol
Stacy : dan's house kinda freaks me out. i don't know why
compe: yeah
compe: fireplace is only plus
compe: and pc
Stacy : lol. well, i already got one here. and i don't have to worry about wood.
Stacy : and you have a fireplace @ your house!
compe: yeah and surprisingly it really works
compe: yeah i have two at my house
Stacy : lol
Stacy : you lost me somewhere there...
Stacy : sounds to me like your place is better, cept for the pc
compe: the first house i moved into had an electric oone but it suct
compe: yeah my house is beautiful
Stacy : electric is bull. mine's at least gas. i don't have the time/energy for a real wood one
Stacy : your house in fl?
compe: very fortunate to have met a cool dude like my roommates
Stacy : yeah, you do have a cool roomy. wait, i met james, who's your other roomy?
compe: greg
compe: hes real cool
Stacy : did i meet him?
compe: very queit
compe: extremelly smart
Stacy : cool deal
Stacy : not that it matters since your never home! lol
compe: right
Stacy : who you got coming over tonite?
compe: hmmmm
Stacy : that takes a hmmmm?
compe: huh?
Stacy : lol, nada
Stacy :
Stacy : you just couldn't answer my question
compe: i don't mind talking about
compe: do i need to
Stacy : no
Stacy : you're the one that avoided the question
compe: not uh
compe: treadinng lightly
Stacy : ??
compe: hold on
compe: sorrry the wife of my friend just called i i told about that red cross thing
Stacy : if they need help, please tell me. between me and jenny we are usually pretty good at finding necessary resources. and jenny is a SAHM so she has time.
Stacy : we make a great team when we need info
compe : true that well yeah she seem clueless and very distraugt
Stacy : ok, well jenny is sleeping but i can get on it first thing tomorrow if you remind me. i need to know what they need
compe: well he'll be here first thing tommoo
Stacy : k, well you have my work email and ph#
compe: yep
Stacy : btw, very good @ avoiding earlier conversation...
compe: no i wasw trying to just thoght i'd let you know
compe: ask away
Stacy : ??
Stacy : all i asked was who u had coming over
compe: you already new
Stacy : ??
compe: knew
Stacy : ??
compe: viv
Stacy : explains y she put her head down when she passed me in the hall today. not normal for her.
Stacy : i can't...
Stacy : i work w/ her. that's just fucked up
Stacy : sorry.
compe: probably scared
compe: whats fucked up
Stacy : y scared? of me?! please.
Stacy : that you'd be fucking w/ someone i work w/
compe: why you never let me close
Stacy : i was trying to. u stopped giving me a chance
Stacy : that's fine.
Stacy : your deal. don't worry about it
compe: got frustrated figured it would better to chill out
Stacy : it didn't get difficult until u tried to label it
compe: besides look at you now all pissed
Stacy : i just think that's messed up is all. i have to see this girl @ work everyday
Stacy : well pass her in the hall @ least
compe: so she doesn't think any diffrent of you
Stacy : not the point
Stacy : don't worry, it was my fuck up , not yours
compe: i guess i sorta feel guilty but not sure of it was me
Stacy : and how would you know if she thinks any dif of me? have you actually mentioned me?
Stacy : it was both of us
compe: of course
compe: yeah i agree
compe: but iwouldn't feel any diff towards her
Stacy : well, i gonna ask if i was gonna see you this week, but forget it
Stacy : true. you would've dropped me anyway so it's all good
compe: we can still chill
compe: what!!!!!!!!!
Stacy : what do you mean what>
Stacy : ?
compe: i still want to chill but things have change
Stacy : that's fine.
compe: you seem like u fucking hate me
Stacy : story of my fucking life apparently. you need to come get your stuff. i hate the way you went about everything and i...
Stacy : i don't fucking know.
compe: calm down
Stacy : whatever, you're finally getting laid and that's all you wanted so who am i to care?
compe: your going to far
Stacy : ??
compe: thats not fair
Stacy : what isn't fair?
compe: uuuh what u just said
Stacy : you changed ion a fucking day like it was nothing and that was days AFTER you met her
Stacy : it's not her. that came out wrong
Stacy : this fucking city is too small
compe: well
compe: i did try and still think your one of coolest people i've met here
Stacy : fuck, you get to go home in 3 months. i can't. i wish to god i could. i wish i could now
Stacy : ty
Stacy : but u can't just back track like that. i've tried that b4. most of the time it doesn't work
compe: back track?
Stacy : just be friends
compe: yeah i feel you
compe: but don't want lose your friendship
Stacy : i don't either but i couldnt' hang out w/ u right now. and have everyone fucking talking about me @ work? that's all i have is work. people here fucking suck. we've been through this. all i have is my job and my friends back home
compe: no ones going to talk
Stacy : it's bad enough w/ other shit that's happened
compe: talk about what
Stacy : bullshit. you don't know that place
compe: i haven't said shit
Stacy : how some chick from that dept beat me out again for a guy
compe: its not like that
compe: she doesn't fell that way
Stacy : at least i didn't sleep w/ you. but actually, it was closer in a way and that's what's fucked up. how you just all of a sudden changed like that
compe: feeel
Stacy : feel what way?
compe: she doesn't feel anyway and i didn't all that sudden u weere seperating yourself from me
Stacy : huh?
compe: change
Stacy : sorry, i honestly can't figure out what you just tried to say there
compe: lol
compe: i said i didn't change al that sudden u were seperating yourself from me
Stacy : no, you did change too.
compe: first time i met her i told her we were friends
compe: good friends
Stacy : me and you?
compe: yes
Stacy : yeah, i was there
Stacy : is she there?
compe: so why would she think she took me from you
compe: no
Stacy : no no no, ok, you got it wrong
compe: i wouldn't do that
Stacy : i don't know, y would she look down when she passed me? don't you think she would look up and say hi if me and you are just friends and i know her from work?
Stacy : she doesn't look down when she walks
Stacy : wouldn't do what?
compe: well maybe that she has girl sense or something i did say we were spending a lot of time together
Stacy : yeah, i miss that
compe: wouldn't be talking like this in her presence
Stacy : well, u know how guys can be. no offense.
compe: i guess
Stacy : lol
compe: i still have no problem chillin
Stacy : and that's the end of it?
compe: huh
Stacy : what's to question?
compe: thats the end of what?
Stacy : everything else
compe: like
Stacy : what do you mean "like"?
compe: i dont know this is getting frustrating
Stacy : what is? what do you want me to say?
compe: dunno
compe: should i feel like shit
Stacy : i just think you went about this in a messed up sort of way
compe: i think i could have handled it diff
Stacy : especially when you're here one night telling me some girl brought you home but you didn't sleep w/ her cuz you wanted to be w/ me and the next thing...
Stacy : don't pride yourself on being different then other guys if you're going to act exactly the same way
compe: well other guys wouldn't be spending this much time trying to talk about it
Stacy : you'd be surprised how much time a guy will spend trying to defend himself
compe: fuck that shit
Stacy : lol, i was just saying
Stacy : it was a joke
compe: i'm not lol
Stacy : not what?
compe: not laughing
compe: out loud
Stacy : SORRY
Stacy : you want to know the fucking truth? you want me to fucking tell you what i really feel? you want to fucking not hold back???!!!!
compe: let all hang out
compe: sick of running around in circles
Stacy : i did like you and that was the fucking problem. i don't know how to do that. i don't fucking know how to be w/ someone and you almost gave me a fucking chance. no one has done that besides D.
Stacy : but i can't fucking like you. you were the wrong fucking person. and...
compe: what about the whole dan thing
Stacy : i will always always love D. and it's hard for me to be w/ someone else. you are the closest i've gotten in a long long time.
Stacy : fuck dan. we kissed a couple of times. most of it was me pushing him away
compe: u took him home
Stacy : i invited you guys over cuz i wanted to chill w/ all of you and you were out there having a blast so i figured you'd be fun to hang out w/
compe: true
Stacy : i took all of you home!!!! every time he tried to say you guys weren't coming i said he could get my number and i'ld talk later. i would NEVER have brought him back alone
Stacy : and you know that
compe: well i believe u
Stacy : then why have you asked me so many times?
Stacy : "well, you don't ever show you feel that way" how many times have i heard that one. i can't show my feelings and it drives them all away and i only can't because i'm scared of getting hurt.
Stacy : quote from my blog
Stacy : god i hate that all this is in writing
compe: why is some going read this besides us
compe: callme
Stacy : no one on my end.
Stacy : lol, notice this is the probably the best conversation we've ever had though?
compe: same here
Stacy : it's easier to write than to have to say out loud
compe: its hard to feel f your words
Stacy : ??
Stacy: that extra "f" threw me off
compe: typo
Stacy : oh, ok.
Stacy : call ***-*833?
compe: too late
Stacy : ??
compe: can''t talk now yunno
Stacy : have fun. bye

posted by LittleOne @ 11:27 PM